Lots of Changes!

Change, Change, and more change.

If anyone ever wants to change, get married.

If anyone ever wants to experience rapid fire changes, get married.

In the last two months, I've had to accept that the woman I've seen in the mirror for the last 22 years is now called by a different name. I knew Ashley Jones like the back of my hand. Since I was born, I've always had a solid sense of identity and a crazy love for my life. I don't know if it was weird looking in the mirror and wondering who in the world Ashley Mattison would be or become, but I definately dealt with this wonder for a little while.

Would she be fit?

Would she be everything that Ashley Jones had dreamed she would be as an adult, wife, mother?

Would she give up on some of the dreams that Ashley Jones relied on God to bring to pass?

Would she be as madly in love with her Savior as Ashley Jones was?

I can honestly say that becoming comfortable with being Ashley Mattison was almost a seamless transition. I had peace because I know that God escorted me to this new place in my life.

Eventually, I knew that Ashley Mattison will be even better than Ashley Jones.

One thing I can say 2 months in is that Ashley Mattison has put a more mature spin on her previous dreams, specifically one of having the wedding of Ashley Jones' dreams. At this point in my life, I'm so happy and content with my life with my husband that I no longer feel the need to a dream wedding ceremony on May 15. We've decided that on that day, we'd rather go on some type of trip, just the two of us and I'm completely content with that. It will save money and the sanity of those in my life who would have tried their best to help fund my dream.

I've even had to change my mind of the trip a little too. God has taken me from wanting a short but semi tropcial trip to a day trip to a beautiful place. I'm content with that too. And happier than I could've ever imagined before!

Cheers to change,

Ashley